It's hard to find the balance sometimes, and honestly the way I'm feeling right now, today, the balance is hitting a bad point. I hope it doesn't stay this way, but with the way my life goes, who knows. Sailorman was able to skype with me today, and he was an absolute sweetheart. I wish this week's song could be about him, but my heart is just too full of hurt from my friend and her boyfriend to try and feel the warmth and affection that I do feel for Sailorman. One bright spot in this mess has been me opening my eyes to the fact that while I do not love Sailorman the way I once did, I do love him with something much more permanent.
