Look what I made today!

Isn't it awesome looking? Low carb and gluten free :)

Yet Another Post Tonight

Well, aside from the boring school stuff that I'd rather not think about now, that's pretty much been me my most exciting stuff happening. My best friend's grandmother died over the weekend.....and to top it off one of her professors went completely nuts during her critique of my bff's art project. The poor thing called me up in angry, stressed tears. I didn't really know what to do for her, I listened as well I could. I hope I did end up saying the right things, I hope I did help her to calm down. It's hard to be in that sort of a situation, with so many of the different balls you have up in the air....it's really no wonder that some are going to come crashing down.

As much as I love D, she does tend to put a lot on herself. This is on top of all the work that is put on top of her as well. She's amazing, she's a strong worker, and advocate for others. Unfortunately, she rarely lets others be an advocate for her. Pride is a big thing, and sometimes you just have to be able to swallow it. I don't know if she checks my blog often, but if she does.....D, I love you, and I really hope that you do talk to your professor about everything that's been going on. (Yes, she's an evil biatch and if she isn't the slightest bit understanding, I promise I'll put something in some brownies for you.) It's ok to ask for help, and not just from the ones nearest and dear to you. Sometimes the best help you can receive is from a stranger who doesn't understand the whole situation. Drama begets drama, and we're in the home stretch, with dead week and finals looming on the horizon. I promise we'll party it up with tons of lemonade and brownies!

Exciting new finds!

So Happy Cyber Monday my bloggy friends! Did you have fun in the comfort of your (hopefully) warm homes looking at awesome deals online? For the most part I didn't, though I couldn't resist two rangerup.com tshirts after I got an email for a free ship code.

Here they are, photos from rangerup.com

I thought they were pretty awesome, and just couldn't resist! 

Another new thing, I went to Trader Joe's, which is quite possibly my favorite grocery story in the world.....ok that was a lie, but it's definitely up there, you get awesome organic products for an incredibly affordable price! Some new thing I found was peanut flour. Never used it before, but it looked like something I could have fun with :). 

Let's see what else is new with J world? Today I beta tested a granola bar recipe. Unfortunately, the cutting them part didn't work so well.....so I ended up with granola balls lol! I'm going to be trying a new recipe for energy bars. Sailorman is semi-addicted to granola bars, and I'd rather he ate something that was not super loaded with sodium, and maybe be able to sneak healthy stuff in for him too. I'd rather he stuck around for quite a while :)

Say Yes to the Dress

Very very very addicting show. Bad Netflix for letting me watch season after season on watch instantly! I've always been a "I don't want a poofy cupcake dress" kind of girl. This is definitely making me re-think this stance. All the dresses look so amazing!

I'm so cold!

In the beautiful city by the bay, it's been record breaking cold. The last few weeks have been in the low 30s. For the city that used to being at the lowest in the 40s, and in the 50s when it rains, to say we've all been freezing would be an understatement. I've switched not only to flannel sheets, but I've added a fleece blanket in addition to my down comforter. The Sailorman keeps calling me a wuss for complaining about the cold. Well, unlike the Sailorman who runs about 10 degrees hotter than the rest of us mortals, I didn't grow up in the Midwest.

Yesterday, Thanksgiving, I went to my bestie's house for dinner. It was fun. I'd never been over for Thanksgiving before, and it was a pretty intense thing. Super duper fancy, I put on an outfit I hadn't worn in nearly a year, and it was super loose fitting. Yeah, that was awesome! I think that since last Dec, I've lost about 30 lbs. Yay for finally getting a correct diagnosis and getting on the correct medication! 

Today is Black Friday. Can you guess where I am? Well, I don't know if I've mentioned this or not, but I am not a shopper. At all. It's rare for me to be in a shopping mood, and even then, unless it's clothes, I'd rather just shop online. So where am I? In my bed, with the flannel sheets, down comforter, and fleece blanket. Wearing socks, yoga pants, a long sleeve shirt, and a t shirt on top of that. Yeah......and I'm STILL cold! My mom is off, hitting the outlets. I'll probably at some point clean the kitchen and start on all the holiday cookies my mom promises people. Pretty huge list this year, and since I'm leaving the 15th, I want to get a head start as soon as possible.

Thankfulness

Thankfulness is an interesting word. Thanksgiving is a love/hate day for me. I'm thankful everyday of my life for all that I have, even when I'm sulky, or surly.....or just generally bitchy, I'm thankful that I'm able to live in a country that allows me to be all those things and more. I'm thankful that I have a mom who understands me, who gets that sometimes she does have to just leave me alone, let the mood ride, and then I can be my cheerful self once again. I'm thankful that I have an amazing boyfriend who gets me, even more than my mom does. Who I'm able to communicate with, fight with, and because of the extreme distance, have gotten closer to than I think I could have if we had been able to court normally.

I guess that post sentence as also me being thankful for us being so far apart. I know that what we're going through right now is just a small taste of what deployment is going to be like. I'm thankful that our rough patch happened when it did, because that got us to completely revamp our relationship. We're so much more open and honest about how we feel, that epic fights are bypassed for the most part. I don't know if we could have survived deployment with our sanity intact if we hadn't gotten so much out in the open.

I'm thankful that my Sailorman loves me to distraction. I'm thankful that I'm 80% sure he's going to ask me to marry him this Christmas. I'm thankful my best friend loves me through anything, and she kept the secret of Sailorman asking her for ring advice to herself for a whole 6 weeks before I found out.

Pretty much, I'm thankful that my life is going the way it is. Yes, there's still the who knows if it's X or Y in the back of my head. Yes, I don't know if I'm going to get 3 weeks or 4 this Holiday season. But today I'm going to take a break for stressing, let the Navy do what the Navy is going to do, because in the long run, no matter what I want, or what Sailorman wants, the command will do what the command wants to do.

Oh and one last thankful: I get to see my Sailorman in 19 days! If that isn't something to be thankful for, then I think I just don't know the meaning of the word :)

Up In the Air

I'm kind of a control freak. I know this about myself. Even if I can't control the situation, I like knowing what the situation is. Now....I get to sit around looking pretty and wait for the secret squirrel committee to decide if they're sending the Sailor to country X or country Y. If it's country X then my trip out to Virginia will be cut short by a week. If it's country Y, plans go on as they are, but he deploys sooner, to a much more scary country. So.....which one to I hope for? More time with him now....getting to welcome him home sooner, but also having him in a much more hostile environment, or getting less time now, but knowing that he's (somewhat) safer? Tough call.

I think it's time for a change

I want to be more positive. This is going to be hard....I think I use all my positivity up when I'm around people, and I'm a total downer when I'm by myself. I like to play the "what's the worst that could happen" game with myself.....and with my imagination that's never a good thing. I want to just change my blog, find a focus. Lately it just feels like my focus has been on every negative part of my relationship. The thing is, there is so much good it feels like bragging to even bring it up. From all that's happened in the last few months, I'm amazed at the turn around. My Sailor is attentive, he's complimentary, he's present for me. For the last months we've had a two hour conversation every night. We're both so ready to see each other I think we could scream about it.

Something pretty amazing news, I can't believe I almost forgot! I think that someone is gonna ask me a question! To say I'm excited would be a completely understatement!

Day 16: Someone that's not in your state/country

Again.....this post could be all about the Sailor. He's in freaking Virginia right now. Sorry to all the VA ladies, but as of right now, VA sucks the big one. Yay for him already deciding that he wants to go back to SD for his next PCS though! By this time we'll probably be married, and considering our first baby. It's crazy how throughout all of this crazy up and down that we've gone through since I've started this blog, right now we've reached a place of pretty much total honesty. While yes, we still have arguments and disagreements, and occasionally, fights, We've gone past the place of bottling stuff up and just letting it brew until it explodes. Now we're a lot calmer about talking stuff out and working it out like grown up. We're so ridiculously in love it's kinda silly. Let me just say that it's pretty awesome to be nose over tail for someone :)

Day 15: The person you miss the most

Haha well this is a no brainer. I miss my Sailor! I miss him so much it's kind of insane. It literally feels like there's a part of me missing when I'm not around him.....what can I say? He's my soul mate. This is probably my favorite explanation of soul mate's I've never read:

The one person you are meant to be with continues on through life and death and life again. If reincarnation were to be true, your soul mate is still the same regardless of what life you are in. You spend your entire life searching for this person you are destined to be with. And every time you find them, your heart and your soul sometimes recognize it before your mind does. That explains why sometimes you feel you have known someone forever, that you already know who they are- because you have known them, for as long as your souls have existed you two were meant to be together.

However, I get to see him in 29 days! Whoo hoo! 

Christmas Card

Joy And Magic Christmas Card

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Here's the card that I chose for my 50 free holiday cards from shutterfly.com Pretty awesome, and I saved $120! Here's my post on how to get your own!

Day 14: Someone you've drifted away from

To me, friends are precious things. I'm not the type to have a lot of friends who I don't talk to often, once I don't really feel like we have much in common any more, I tend to drift away. I don't know if that's a good or bad thing. I have only one really good friend right now. While I have many acquaintances, it's hard for me to be able to consider true friends among a lot of them. I feel the need to watch what I say around a lot of people. I think the Sailor is the only person that I've never felt the need to censor myself for.

Day 13: Someone you wish you could forgive

So yeah, definitely did not do this in a row, yet by now I'm kinda determined to finish it.....at some point lol. Life does get in the way however.

Someone I wish I could forgive. Well, that's a broad topic. There are parts of me and wish I could fully forgive my dad for all the shit he's put me through. While for the most part I've moved past it, and accepted the fact that he will never be a true father to me. It's a sad realization, one that's taken me quite a while to get, but to fully forgive......now that one is tough. So I guess my dad is who I wish I could forgive. If not for him, than maybe someday for me.

He's just......MEAN!

Ok, no, not really.....however, my boyfriend is so mean! He keeps telling me that he's going to ask me to marry him, he's been looking at rings and has one picked out, he knows when and where he's going to ask me, and even has his outfit picked out (yeah that part was me teasing him, but apparently it's true) BUT he refuses to share! I hate surprises...with a passion, and yet he continues to tease me with this......I know I should be happy, but at this point I'm just "mad" at him for teasing me so much about something so important. Sorry for ranting, but I needed to share lol.

Dreams

I have the weirdest, most vivid dreams ever. The Sailor likes to say I have movie quality dreams. This is very very true. The thing is.....3/4 of the time I don't remember them. The quarter that I do remember makes me wonder just how much more vivid and weird can my brain be? Another weird thing: I always feel compelled to tell people if they've been in my dream or not. This can be a more or less stranger, like just a facebook friend, or bloggy friend. Though, I've yet to actually dream of a bloggy friend.....yet. Just a random thought of the day. If I blogged every time I had a random thought I think I'd blog a lot more. My brain thinks very strange thoughts.

Shutterfly's 50 Free Holiday Card Promotion

It's open to all bloggers! How awesome is that? I'm not too sure what exactly I'm going to choose, horrible I know, seeing as how it's already November and almost Thanksgiving. I'm debating whether to make it a me and mama, or me and the Sailor. Either way I'm sure they're going to be awesome. Back when I was away at university I had a job in Enrollment. One of my jobs was to make thank you cards for all the prospective freshmen through Shutterfly. 

If you want to get the free cards go here.

There are so many options to choose from! Here are the Holiday Cards.

I think that this one is my favorite.

I think all of you guys should check this out! It's a really sweet deal from Shutterfly, and hey, its free! Doesn't get much better than free :) 

Citizenship Update

For all those who actually read my drama (lol) here's an update on my rather whiny last couple of posts.

The Mexican Embassy in San Francisco has been VERY helpful. While no, I can't renounce my citizenship, I can submit a request, including a letter stating why I want to renounce, and they'll send that over to the capitol who will in turn send a letter back pretty much saying "she tried to renounce, but she can't" as a proof letter. This letter will (hopefully) be accepted by the secret squirrel investigators and the only thing left is for the Sailor to actually ask me to marry him! Yay!

The Sailor talked to his security manager and told him the whole situation, and he's sent off a email to the investigating peeps. Hopefully I'm still going to be kept in the loop....I probably will, the Sailor called me from work in order to let me know what was happening as soon as he knew. He's such a sweetheart :)

On another note, he's been talking about rings! As in.....he's been looking at them! Eeeek! This is exciting! I'm also down to a little bit more than 4 weeks until I'm flying cross country and landing in Virginia! To say that it's been an emotional roller coaster, in a good way, would be a complete understatement.

Just.....WHY?

So today was THE day. I went down to the embassy. And waited. And waited. And Waited. And WAITED. Do you get the picture that a lot of waiting was involved?

Finally, my turn was up. I was immediately told that I would have to talk to this other guy. So.....more waiting. The dude called another family before me. I had been waiting longer, and was naturally, a wee bit upset at that.

After more waiting.....getting to be a theme isn't it? My mom comes up to me and says that the dude told her that it has never been done before, and he doesn't know if it's possible.

Ummmmm excuse me? 

You're telling me that no one has ever given up their Mexican citizenship in the history of Mexico? I doubt that one very much. So....we go and talk to this other lady and it turns out......Mexico made it illegal to renounce citizenship. You're stuck with it since 2003. Grrrreat. So I was told to write a letter to the Secretary of Citizenship and I'll receive a letter back stating that it's not possible to renounce, and hopefully the Navy will accept that. Right now I feel like the world just doesn't want me to get married! Sigh. As completely self-pitying as it is, why oh why me? 

Life is going to change

Tomorrow is going to be a big day. I'm going to be going to the embassy to get rid of my second citizenship. Due to the Sailor's job, I can't live with him if I have a dual citizenship. So.....I'm going to take one away. Big step. Lots of fights. With both him and my mom. In the end, it seems to have worked out though. Mom is going to be taking me to the embassy, we'll see if we need to make an appointment or not, if we do I hope we can get paperwork to fill out to make this go by faster.

While texting the Sailor I told him that this was his last chance to back out (jokingly of course!) his response was "there's nothing to back out from babe, I know that I want you, I want to marry you, have kids with you, and I wouldn't be asking you to do this if I wasn't sure."

We'll see what happens tomorrow.....but I think that this is the first step towards making our dreams a reality.

I FINALLY cut my hair!

 My last haircut was 5 months ago. Yep.....5 months. I've basically ignored my hair for the last 5 months because I'm a haircut addict. I hate the in between stages, and so as soon as I enter it, I'm usually off to the salon. This time.....because the Sailor prefers longer hair, I grit my teeth, and I bore the agony that was growing it out. No idea why the pictures are such a yucky quality, but here are my before and afters!