Life, How it Changes and how we Change with It

I haven't touched this thing in probably a year. Who knows who is actually going to read it.

I don't think I'm a very good writer, probably because I write the way I talk, and the way I talk is all over the place. I'm not too sure what the focus on my teeny tiny little slice of the internet should be anymore. I started this whole blog thing back when I was dating Sailorman and didn't know how or who to talk to about the insane stupidness that is a man. My friends weren't of any help at the time, because any experience they had with dating was with a "good Christian boy" and who I was dating (now married to) was DEFINITELY not part of that definition.

Not to say that Sailorman is a bad guy, he's not at all. I sure as hell wouldn't have married him if he was. But our problems, and the way we conducted our relationship, which is to say the way more normal healthy relationships between two young people are conducted, wasn't the way I was raised to be in a relationship.

I have no clue why I'm even thinking about writing about how I was raised, actually, maybe I do. I think I'm thinking back on how I was raised, the values that I was told to have, the moral code I was told to live by, because we're getting closer to be as ready as possible to start our family. It's not for a while yet, but When it comes to thinking about my future children, I wonder and worry about how they should be raised.

I don't think that the way I was raised was necessarily bad, there are certain aspects that I really liked. Though I know that Hubs probably doesn't agree with a lot of it. That's the problem when you marry someone that was in no way shape or form raised with religion. They don't understand the weirdness that comes from being raised with church and all the weird politics that go with it.

I hated those politics. Probably why I shy away from going to church, though I do enjoy the sunday services that the base chapel has. Nondenominational is probably the way for me, I think that I would make a terrible convert. I have a very "been there done that" attitude when it comes to religion, something that I need to kick myself in the butt about changing. I know that Hubs has a curiosity about religion, different Bible stories that he didn't grow up with, basically everything that I take for granted when it comes to my childhood. Something to think about and hopefully work on harder.